Me an what is most presious to me

I know my church misses me but I'm like healing I think. I'm in a rebuild mode right now for me. I went back were I was Mrs. Shannon I'm not home less or anything like that. An please don't worry me an Caleb an Nick are a okey. I still see my boy every other weekend in person. When I'm done with what I'm doing to get people off my back an to fix my life with no help from any one. I just want my privacy that's all. An I don't want  no deal s with any one as far as me standing on my own an not being at the mercy of the other person. I'll come back an out of my hole I guess if you wanna call it that. I'll come back to church when I ready thank's for careing about me an please don't pray for me I'm reading crazy love an it's helping some. But I want people to know who ever reads this Renee, Samantha, Amanda an who ever. Those are the three name's that come to mind beside's my dad of course. I'm going to back out to the world that you live in you will see me again expecally you Renee. Every thing you have said to me I will make a lie. Saying no one could love me Amanda. Same on you every day at my job I'm loved cause I'm alway's the guy that bring's a laugh an smile an every one loves my art an creative mind an the way I alway's try to help someone. At least I can say that. Samantha you took away alot from me in my life. You had my instatutionalised at east alabama that was absalutely imbarasing to a guy like me. An the only way that even happened is because I dumped you cause YOU ARE NUT'S! An the school said well he's male an she is female an I so called had a learning disabiltiy that that school said I had because I have a speach problem. Renee I think you are going to hang your self when my son turn's on you. You tell him every day I'm just BJ not daddy but I alway's make sure he has a good time with me. The day will come when you will have to tell him exactly who I am to him. An that guy jay you married he's a cheap imatation of me. He is anothe redneck in this state another lost face that you clam is better than me. Well that's fine just don't say it to me every time I come to pick my son up an I don't know if you noticed this he is starting to look more an more like me. An dad you can't run forever like you did for me an nick our whole live's. Have a nice day. :)